Jamie Hubley, a 15-year-old gay tenth grader from Ottawa, Canada was clearly not having an easy time. His online blog entitled, You Can’t Break… When You’re Already Broken, was filled with painful reflections on his stormy voyage through life. Just before he took his own life this past Friday, (11/14) he made one final entry:
Im a casualty of love.
Well, Im tired of life really. Its so hard, Im sorry, I cant take it anymore.
First Id like to mention my friends Nancy, Abby, Colleen, jemma, and Kasia
Being sad is sad : /. I’v been like this for way to long. I cant stand school, I cant stand earth, I cant stand society, I cant stand the scars on my arms, I cant fucking stand any fucking thing.
I dont want my parents to think this is their fault either… I love my mom and dad : ) Its just too hard. I dont want to wait 3 more years, this hurts too much. How do you even know It will get better? Its not.
I hit rock fucking bottom, fell through a crack, now im stuck.
My favorite singers were lady gaga , Adele , Katy perry, and Jessie james, Christina aguilara and most of all I think KASIA!!! I LOVED Singing, and she helped me a lot : ) Im not that good at it though :”/, Im going to miss you guys
(well You know who you are, But to the people who didnt like me (many) A big fuck you, Go ride a unicorn. But w/e I love you anyway.)
Remember me as a Unicorn :3 x) MAybe in my next life Il be a flying squirreel 😀
Il fly away.
Jamie’s battles to be liked and accepted among his peers, was highlighted by this remarkable song entitled, “Cooler Than Me,” that he posted on You Tube:
How many more have to die? When a child has a physical illness, do friends and family members hope that he/she will get better? Or do they get him/her the medical attention needed? Depression and being the victim of bullying also require immediate attention. A life depends on it!
Rest in peace Jamie Hubley. Sorry we weren’t there for you.